Mistakes..

"If you ever get a wish, Would you wish to go back and change things?
Change the choices that you made, the choices that maybe were mistakes?"

"Maybe, I will; maybe, I won't.

But also, If I ever went back, I'm afraid I might do the same mistakes again and hurt myself even more.

I'm scared  for once again, I would fall for your tricks. I am sure I would let open all my scars and you dressed as a bandage would rip open the wounds.

I would love your soul and once again, you would leave me right there in the middle with nothing but broken promises and an empty heart.

Even if going back and changing things would let me have you, I don't think I could ever live knowing that you left once.

Being aware of my innocence you deliberately departed; with unsaid words, outwitting goodbyes.

And even, for once, if I believe, by changing the past I would know what I want or by choosing different paths, I could be better off; I won't be going through all the memories and lessons.

I wouldn't be reminiscing at 4 in the evening or 4 at the dawn.

I wouldn't be realizing how ignorant the feelings could go. I wouldn't be the one appreciating and cherishing the ones who love.

For once I could do with knowing your intentions.

But I m afraid I might still fall for you.

In spite of knowing your tricks, about how you could fell for everybody.

I would still be sitting there, awestruck on your random stupidities and clumsy strolls.

Memorizing how I knew the Devil's tricks yet I lured myself into the trap."

                                                                - Anshu Sharma